Peace of Mind

Earlier was a rather peaceful day for me. I have found a new diversion. I have been watching "Bleach", a Japanese anime. I'm at episode 12 now. Each episode is at 20-25 minutes. A good way to kill time and forget.

Timestamp: 4:27 AM MNL, Monday early morning.
Marimar is still in Bohol and may be returning early this morning. Don't really know what her plans are but that's what she told me before they left. I have been texting her earlier today just to let her know what I have been doing. She hasn't texted me since they left. I understand. The guy's quite lazy to reload. It was a good sleep.

When I woke up, I received a text message from a "Bella Aladama" via chikka.com. "Gud evening po," that's what it said. At least she's the only person who greets me that way. So even if she uses a different number or name, I know that it's her. I felt a sudden warmth when I read his message. So here I go again.

I sent a message to her mobile to check if it was her. She said yes and that she was still in Bohol. I did not bother to exchange any more messages with her. I said good night right away. I got ready and headed for work.

It wasn't really a pleasant day after all that had happened lately, but that was the best I have had for weeks. It might have been because I got a few things to divert my attention on. I'm quite grateful to "Bleach". I just don't know what happens when I finish all episodes.

I wasn't able to sleep early but a few several things kept me occupied. There wasn't much of an idle time to think and meditate. When I got home, I watched TV. Two hours later, I turned on the computer to re-download games on my phone because I accidentally erased them. At around 2:00PM, I was already sleepy. I took a bath and went to sleep. I woke up not heavy-headed. When I got to work, I continued watching my anime series.

My gf is leaving for Leyte. She would be gone for a week or less. Likewise, I'm looking forward to seeing Marimar. I have been quite curious on what she had wanted to talk about. This may be crying time. So I have made myself ready for what she may be telling me. That may be the last conversation we will have.

The house seemed very lonely now. Ferdz had left the house for good after resigning from work. My gf had also passed her resignation letter and will be leaving for Leyte after the effectivity. Kuya is always not around and so are my two sisters. Everyone seems to be leaving. I feel like I'm all alone.

We were planning of moving to another house. Perhaps at the end of July since there would just be three of us left - my two sisters and I. I hate moving out. I have learned to love the place even though I despised it at first. And I'm not even sure if I'm ready to move on. I just felt that I'd be left alone.

I have long been telling myself that I keep distance from Marimar. Diversion has been working quite well. This could just be the first step. I can do this. Just as Marimar is keeping herself busy to keep her from thinking about her bf. I know I can never win. And I have been hoping for the impossible to happen. This feeling's got to stop. I got to let go.