Reminiscing!

Time stamp: 12:55AM MNL; July 30, 2006, Sunday early morning.

It has been quite a while. I had kept myself so busy that I thought I had forgotten all about this blog. Many things had happened quite recently. Coping seemed impossible. Works feels like hell. And I'm ready to quit should a new opportunity comes. Yet, when you settle down and gets to grasp the emptiness of your room, you get to reminisce a lot.

She sends me short messages every now and then. But unlike before, I have restricted myself on further starting a conversation (well... except through YM). She has noticeably changed. T_T

It has been a month or so since I last saw her. Howsoever, it makes me happy when I virtually see her smiling. "Marimar" of GMA! just reminds me of her. She bears a striking resemblance of her that's why I never miss to watch the tv show no matter how sleepy I am.

Hahay! When you stop for a while and think deep, that sad face just expresses a lot of sorrow deep down inside. Whatever it is, I don't want to hear it. I just wish I could do something about it. I have been dreaming of a lifetime being in love with you. If only, I could turn back time. If only I knew. Then I would have been proud to tell everyone that you had built your foundation on me. 8"(

I have been on my weakest side since you came into my life. Crying wasn't unusual anymore. I just knew it that knowing you was the biggest mistake I have ever done.

WAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!! Nibalik na pud tanan. Abi nko ug nakalimot nako. Abi nako ug okay nako. Huhuhuhu!!! 8"(

Maybe

There I was
Waiting for a chance
Hoping that you'll understand
The things I wanna say

As my love went stronger than before
I wanna see you more and more
But you closed your door
Why don't you try
To open up your heart
I won't take so much of your time

Maybe, it's wrong to say please love me too
'Coz I know you'll never do
Somebody else is waiting there inside for you
Maybe it's wrong to love you more each day
'Coz I know he's here to stay
But I know to whom you should belong

I believed what you said to me
We should set each other free
That's how you want it to be

But my love went stronger than before
I wanna see you more and more
But you closed your door
Why don't you try to open up your heart
I won't take so much of your time

Maybe, it's wrong to say please love me too
'Coz I know you'll never do
Somebody else is waiting there inside for you
Maybe it's wrong to love you more each day
'Coz I know he's here to stay
But my love is strong
I don't know if this is wrong
But I know to whom you should belong

(Maybe, it’s wrong to say please love me too
‘Coz I know you’ll never do)
(Maybe it’s wrong to love you more each day
‘Coz I know he’s here to stay)

Maybe, it's wrong to say please love me too
'Coz I know you'll never do
Somebody else is waiting there inside for you
Maybe it's wrong to love you more each day
'Coz I know he's here to stay
But my love is strong
I don't know if this is wrong
But I know to whom you should belong

Moving On!

Timestamp: 3:03 AM MNL; Sunday early morning.

It has been quite a while since my last post. I'm currently at work. Everybody seems busy but I'm not. I don't have quite much to do so I thought that blogging my thoughts would kill time.

I had been into the "moving on" stage the past few days. Trying to get myself busy so I get pre-occupied. Been watching Bleach (an anime series, rival to Naruto) and I'm at episode 77 now. My phone broke again for the third time. It says configuration error. I guess I have "again" reached the memory limit. So I had it sent to the service center "again" and I guess it would "again" take me 5 days before I get my phone back. Damn! Well... I don't have much to do with my phone man sad. Di na sad kaayo mo-text si Marimar. I just use it for playing games and listening to music. And I don't get as much texts or calls just like everyone else. I can even live without it.

Speaking of Marimar, well, mo-text panagsa. Pero only when you text her first. She said that her phone was also broken and is using Ella's (kauban sa tambayan sa Opra) phone for the mean time. We were able to chat through YM yesterday. Nangumusta lang. As usual, she barely speaks. I ask a question, she answers the question. End of discussion. Always close ended.

I never really wanted to talk about her but I can barely avoid it. For once or twice, she flashes into my mind, gets lost, and comes back again. Hahayz! I'm definite that I can live without her. But when? Only time can really tell.

It would sound really funny noh? I'm having a hard time moving on for someone whom I barely knew, someone I just met for a month, when in fact I have a partner whom I have had for two years. Ironical isn't it?

Now, she barely remembers me. That's at least from my own point of view. Pero niingon man siya nga wala daw siya load permi. We are like distant friends, who barely took root on each other. I just feel like what's holding us is the money that she owe from me. Then she's gone forever. T_T It's better that way man sad "siguro". At least I'd forget her. I have told myself na man sad before nga if ever I get hurt, so be it.

You will always be a memory, I will remember.